Late Night Ramblings

It's so late yet so early. I just got back to school, and I'm at that stage of fatigue where you don't know if you want to fall asleep yet, or stay up a little longer. I have no idea where my mind is right now, and I can't get certain thoughts out of my head. They can be taken good...memories....or bad, like realization and hurt. I don't understand what motive people have; is everyone bipolar these days? Is that the new trend? I haven't come to understand the reason why people do the things they do, including myself. I've learned a lot these past few months that I'll end up cherishing for the rest of my life. I'll try not to make the same mistakes, although for me that seems almost down right impossible. 


Some people say that when you're about to die, they see their life flash before their eyes. Today While driving back, a truck put on their breaks suddenly. The only thing I could see was myself going through my windshield...and nothing else. It's the thought that scares me really. In all sense, I shouldn't be scared to die; it's nature at its best and at its worst. 1:11...make a wish. 


Lethargy is rushing through me now. I don't want to get up. I have to teach tomorrow afternoon and third graders are a lot to handle, especially when the best of life has given up on you. I have to observe them most of the time. When I see how they interact with one another, it's so much different from when I was in grade school. Everyone seems so cordial to each other; something that didn't happen often in my classes. 


My eyes are starting to close slowly, making it harder to type, yet so many thoughts are rushing through my mind...thoughts that occurred to me on the ride home that I wanted to talk about, but those thoughts have slipped my memory. 


I'm so cold yet I feel like I'll get too hot while sleeping. I don't like to make it too warm in here because my roommate isn't anemic like me :p was that a proper time to use "p face"? lol. Ugh why must I laugh at myself? 


Good night, good morning...


Be Peaceful. Be Free.